This is the time of the year when our minds considers the infinite realms of resolutions and intentions.
It is great to sit down and envision a better self as well as a better world. Will we read more books? Listen to more diverse music? Exercise some more or exercise at all? Eat more wholesome food? Be kinder to our spouse? Lose some weight? so many possibilities. Endless thoughts enter and exit our minds. The year that looms ahead is full of promises, but stays like a book, closed to our vision. Inscrutable, a blank book filled with the lusciousness of the unknown and the invite of our best resolutions and intentions.
Some of them we keep alive and struggle to make happen. But many are abandoned like field flowers on the wayside of our path. So many years become a repetition of the one past and our many resolutions and intentions live only in our minds and we feel remorse and guilt for all the forgotten possibilities we had planned for the future.
Along the years, I have learned not to make drastic changes. Maybe turn my thoughts a little bit one way and my vision a little bit the other way, open my feelings more, consider what I can do in my own mind. Like a fisherman, cast my bait and wait with not too much expectation but just the joy of the moment. It could mean unexpected changes, but it could simply mean the continuation of a line of thoughts and inner doings that I extend to the next year.
Some things are here to stay. Bills will come, we will pay our taxes, summer will happen and the earth will spring flowers on our door steps. Children will be born and some of us will die.
The planet will continue its revolutions around the sun and the cycle of the seasons will come again to fit our preferences.
In other words, life will go on as we know it. So what will change with the new year? Maybe nothing, maybe a lot. An earthquake could happen anytime, a revolution, a war, a huge hike in our insurance, a fallout with our best friend or the pleasure of knowing someone new and discovering a new land. How much is due to our resolutions and intentions? maybe nothing, maybe a lot and maybe it is not due to our resolutions but to the ones of those in power and the simple movements of the earth. And also to the changes in the other people psyche, something that we have no power on.
Personally what do I want? more time to write, more time to create, more pen &and ink drawings, more time with my loved ones, maybe a neat trip to Europe or a trip around the states that I have not visited, more and more people to read this blog, and much more of my own inner life. Being in touch with my own feelings, my guidance and the world surrounding me would be an added bonus.
I wonder how much of this will materialize...I know that work will intrude and take me away, that life will interfere one way or the other. But maybe as everyone else, some of my desires will go ahead with the force of a running champion and show me that indeed, my dreams can happen. It is good to let go and envision a life where my desires are met.
Everyone could be thinking the same things and all our desires merge in the collective unconscious to create a strange global soup that eventually is here to confront us. It makes me laugh. Everyone has an intention, and many of our intentions collide!
But it is good to let go and imagine as John Lennon did, a better world, a better year when we thrive and blossom, when our intentions and resolutions line up with some fabulous world happening and we can smile knowing that the year ahead is what we all wanted.
Here are some ways to wrap the year nearly past and learn from all its happenings.
Ask yourself these questions, alone or with some trusted friends.
How was this year? Get an overall view of the year.
What did I not like?
What did I learn?
What did I enjoy the most?
Copyright Dec 2010, Micheline Brierre